freak you!

Some humans are really irritating. They don't inform you of the current situation even when they know you're in with them on some project, some meetings, or the like. So damn ******. It really , really, really gets to the bottom of my nerves.

I do my part in getting information, informing you about things that concern you. It doesn't mean that you can think, "oh, she will call me if she wants to know about it" Come on! I'm not the SAINT aren't I?

IF I am the saint, maybe I would know Every Single Damn thing that you're not telling me though you think you should but do not!

I'm getting so worked up that words don't come pouring out as they should. I think it's the least decent thing you could do by informing me about things that matter!!!!Even the day before, the hour before or the minutes before!!! I still don't understand how some people can be sooo
IGNORANT and

INSOLENT and

IRRESPONSIBLE!

DONT YOU HAVE A HEART?

OR A MIND IN THE LEAST?


Freak you. You're really breaking my heart. you know. freak.

Damac Finale

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Congratulations! You are successful in going to Dasein Damac Finale. We will call you or mail you soon. See you on 5 September.


Damac is a national art competition held every year by Dasein Academy of Art, and last year 150 students out of thousands were shortlisted to participate in the finale. This year, well well, yun yan and I participated just to see if we could get into the finals. Who knows!!! XD haha.

Anyways, I'm not sure if I get to go because it's really near to the exams and I don't want to flunk any of the subjects. They are way too important. Yet, a trip to KL would be a good experience as I'll get to once again compete under pressure. So, it's a choice I have to make, which I barely get to make, if parents step in. Gratz to yun yan who also got thru into the finals.

We're so happy XD HAHA

drumz

Reminiscing the past...

This is a lil blur, because of the lighting and all during the day of our anniversary.

Retirement?

Seems to me like many pople face the same problem in and out. Many trouble about not being happy neglected. And others just feel depressed about not being loved. HR really freaks me out at times too. Its like, Human Relationship.What about it? It constantly hurts us if we put too much feelings into a relationship. But if we don't, we feel left out. It mostly like a give and take solution. Sometimes, if you're willing to take the risk of being hurt by someone, you may have experienced beautiful moments with that person. I don't know, sometimes, it hurts so much because nobody can understand you that well if you don't say things out in a straightforwardly way. However, some things are just not meant to be said so openly. Cause it might hurt others and break a few hearts. Things don't come easy. And it's really hard to completely forgive someone for making a deep cut in your heart. It becomes a scar that remains there forever and ever. The wound might heal with time, but the scar will always be there. And that's why we hardly ever get over things that matters to us the most.

Speaking of which, today's our 24 Seasons Drums anniversary. It might be the last time that I'll ever get to mingle with them. It kinda hurts seeing that I've been there for about 5 years, and that this will be the last time I'll be looking at those familiar faces and new ones of course. And coach too. It may be the last time I get to experience such wonderful ideas flowing from a single brain which evolves into a whole new concept. It's amazing really. Although I might not be the most active person there, I've always felt their presence there. It's like you know you've always got a home you can go to if something happens. They'll always be there no matter what. And all this is about to end.just.like.that.It's disheartening of course.

But today, I felt what it really felt like to see someone presenting your masterpiece, seeing my team mates out there, drumming along with my masterpiece. I was fidgeting so much, even the coach told me not to get so worried about them. But what can I say, they're brought up by me for that particular drum piece. If I'm not worried for them, who else will be there when they most need someone by their side? Speaking of which, when it came to coach's masterpiece, which was drummed by another set of drummers, he was so excited that he stood up from his seat, and went to the centre of the hall where he could get a better view of his drummers. Now who's more worried? XD But I'm really really glad that before I retire, I get to experience my masterpiece being dedicated by a set of professional and experienced drummers, all of which have joined me thru these 5 years. I love them and will always be there for them. Cheers!! Well done!! Great job at the anniversary today!

What a month!

I sorta neglected this blog for quite sometime, getting "updates!!" from others. Anyways, life's kinda hectic at the moment, mainly for our Drums Anniversary which is going to be held on the 8th of August, which is one day away. This year however, I will not be participating in any of the items involved, mainly due to the injury on my hand ( which is annoyingly not recovering). It makes me feel out of the team because this is the last year, and I will not be able to give it my last shot. However, I do feel grateful the buddies need me there to guide them through our drums item.

Another thing to frustrate over is the performance for the Thanksgiving teacher's day. I don't get the clear picture of what we should actually do to make everyone happy, but I guess there'll always be a good way out. And with the help of coach, we'll make a blast, and hopefully everyone is happy or will be happy. I feel there's no need to fuss about the matter once it's decided so hell just get on with the thing.

This week is "be nice" week. I fared mainly okay for the first day, but my ratings seemed to drop as days pass, but I'm okay la.haha. Just trying to make my life more "colourful". XD I managed to get others to join in the "be nice" week. So it's kinda fun.

There's tons of homework to catch up on. And with the massive headache on and off, I hope I don't explode! We're going to the library once every week to study. It's so fun since everybody can teach me add maths, which I am dead meat weak at. Practically everyone can teach me. I guess I'm improving though. There's essay and esei for homework, not to mention the school's checking our exercises this week and next.

I hope everthing turns out well on 8/8 .haha. so excited. Oh btw, Tze Bey had the privilege to be the first one I drove alone to somewhere far.far.far. And #2 goes to Xin Tze. I wonder when's Xin Rou's turn? This Sunday perhaps? =P