EST blah!

EST class today was a total disaster. Who knew what the teacher was crapping away half the time?!? Plus, whatever he mentioned in the previous lesson left me more clueless than ever. Well, I guess he's too cheem for me to understand. But I will understand! YUSH!! XD

I'm not going to give up to that guy. I bet I can do better than today. (don't ask me, today was TERRIBLE..)
oh well. bye 4 now.

Duston

whoot?

headache.sore throat.still living fortunately.

whoot?

headache.sore throat.still living fortunately.

New Year 2009 XD

So, say HI to year 2009 people. It's gonna be a really horrifying year. Not to mention that I'm going to suffer SPM this year, and my basics are not even there yet. Plus, piano scores are so terribly difficult that I hope I can even get to learn the piece before next year. And the exams will be so hard. I dread to go to the new class this year, mixing around won't be much of a problem as usual. But then about the graduation book advertisements, No problem it should be, except that I lost THAT BOOK!! That BOOK that we were supposed to get the signatures and logos of companies etc. etc. I LOST IT!! Oh well, they said I'll have to report to the police. Such nonsence. I don't get it how they can be so non-sensical. Reporting to the police for ONE BOOK( with just 8 empty pages) sounds really really ridiculus to me. Okay, maybe they were joking..but hey, you can't get too serious with people like those ( that you have in the school, especially those in the top positions) It's not that I didn't look for it the entire holiday, but it seems to have disappeared into thin air.

Anyway, we're getting a doggy. XD
A puppy to be exact. And since my mum has fur phobia, guess who's going to be in charge of the puppy?
It's not gonna be easy. Besides, they pee all over and you won't know if you're gonna step on a "puddle". Plus, bathing it, feeding. I heard it's gonna go thru the menstrual period too. Tell me if you know anything about this okay? Cause it sounds weird that dogs have PMS.

Seriously, next year, I'm out of any club activities, except Drums of course, that I can't quit. But other than that, I'll have to bore myself with studies, and piano, and theory, and badminton..
But I love Badminton though. The coach tortures us every.single.time. It's kinda awful to go home with muscle cramps that lasts for 5 days after that. But, I love it. It's cool. =D

Going back to school will be weird. Especially sitting with a bunch of people. *sorry* I don't have to worry much actually. I'll be having extra classes of course, for EST, Art, and civics (it's a LAME subject. No matter how you put it, it's a terrible waste of time. Seriously what were the people thinking when they introduced this subject?!? It's a waste of our precious trees, more global warming I guess..Plus, the teachers are not really conditioned to teach us this subject. So if it's so vital that we have to cut down trees to learn this subject, why don't they have teachers who are good at it? lolz . Students won't be much better then. lolz. )

I've cut my hair. Snip . Snip. Snip. All those hair gone!! But that's not really a problem. =D I don't mind really. After all, there's still one more year. So why not enjoy having short hair. It's been for four years now, one more year won't hurt the more. Although it's really hard to maintain it ( in many ways). Coming to think of it, our school's administrators also have short hair!! haha!! Well, no wonder they emphasize on their students to maintain a certain LENGTH of hair. Thats too bad for them anyway. X) It's their problem, not ours.

Guess it's just gonna be a simple year ahead. I hope it's gonna be filled with joy and laughter. From family, me and friends. Thanks to those who have been there. Good luck. =D

Happy New Year ~

Jingle bells~ ring~




Merry Christmas <3

Tagged

1. Who is more important to you?
Family

2. How often do you think of committing suicide?
Used to, not now though, cz it doesn't really solve anything.

3. Do you think you have enough confidence?
Sure do.

4. How many babies you want?
Haha~

5. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Of course, plus every cloud that has a silver lining.

6. What is your goal for this year?
To score a good grade in SPM

7. Do you believe in eternity love?
Yeap

8. What's a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to u? (List 5)
1.Someone who understands
2.Someone who cares
3.Someone special
4.Someone interesting
5.Someone perfect? ^^

9. List 5 characteristic of your best friend.
talented, smart, interesting, rational, beautiful

10. What is your bad habit?
Laziness

11. What's your opinion with Distance relationship?
Nothing wrong with that, as long as it's mutual.

12. What does flying means to you?
Hapiness

13. What do you crave for the most currently?
I WANNA SCORE A GOOD GRADE

14. Are you single/in a relationship?
Single

15. What happens when beast becomes the prince?
They marry

16. What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?
Eat, Online, Draw

17. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
A happy person

18. Where are your desire destinations?
Home

19. Do you play Gunbound?
Previously.

20. Do you ever hurt by a person you love? how its feel?
No, never loved. =D



TAGGED: Tricia, Eugene, Ripalo

Instructions: Remove one question from above and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 3 people. List them out at the end of the post.Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessing.

" p.s. Since I've done the tag, I've got blessings XD "

A relieve at last

Zettai Kareshi~
( It's there )
You made me cry again~
^^


Thanks.

Mall Scrooge

I'm back from KL!!
okay, actually I was in many places.
Kota Damansara, Sedang, Putrajaya..etc..
The roads were very very complicated.
And plus, it took us a long time to travel from one place to the other, so you can guess who was tired out in the end.

And the malls!! XD
Super huge!! They're quite huge actually, most are larger than those you get in HK.
They've got 4 malls in the same area.
So you can go to one, then just drop down to have a quick bite, then turn left, to the other mall, the turn right, to another mall. *haha*
Hey, it's true!!

Also went IKEA.
You should have seen the place.
It is so HUGE. HUMONGOUS actually.
We didn't get to scroll through the whole place cause it was quite late at that time.
And those people sure are night owls. XD

Loved the place.
But too complicated for my liking.
I still prefer Penang.
Home Sweet Home. =)

Dilemma

It's fine. I understand.









You know what? I don't.

As a matter of fact, I really can't read people's minds. And certainly not yours. Just because I was willing to let my guard down doesn't mean that you of all the people out there should do this to me.
You think all of this is just a game huh? Well, let me tell you. By all means if I feel threatened, there wouldn't be any friendship between us again. You hear me?
When will you ever learn that I don't give a damn bullshit about what kinda stupid childish game that you so ignorantly pulled up. I'm not interested. Hear me? NOT interested.
Go on and play your stupid, really really idiotic games, and you'll see that I'll have nothing to do with you after that.

I'm sorry I had to blog about it. Cause I don't suppose that it'll end here. Well, I couldn't contain any more anger in me. And neither do I want to hate someone I trust so much. You get me? I don't want to walk down that path of tricks and untruth. I want to be able to believe. To have hope. I want to see a bright future for everybody. Not turning myself against the good. You know something? My friend believes that her only faith is in God. God bless her. Well, MY faith is in the people I trust. I don't want to loose that faith yet. Not now. And maybe not forever. I want to believe that trusting people is not wrong. I want to believe in people. I want to believe that there is more in this world than hurt and pain. I want to believe that word "friends" means much more that just a shallow noun.

Yes, of course many might say that misunderstandings do happen. Of course I do not doubt that. But then, misunderstandings or not, everyone has a limit. Either the "unfortunate misunderstanding" is solved immediately, nobody would be happy right? So please, do not create anymore trouble for anybody okay? The fact that you're sometimes annoying, I still find you likeable. I do not want to ruin our friendship because of the "misunderstanding". So everything that I've blogged about here is true. And I do understand if you're hurt. But please do consider that for every "inappropriate" act that you had made cut deeply into some poor half-shattering heart, and please do consider that that heart won't take anymore cuts from no one. Being unable to do anything unwise about your "inappropriate behaviour" is my regret. Maybe. And perhaps, my first ever regret in life.

I'm not trying to be snobbish or anything. Plus, I don't want to appear high and mighty. But I've got a life. I don't want mine to be ruined. At this brink and point of life, you may not have known what's really really going on, and how I may have felt towards things. But that I do not blame you. You've got your own life too, and a beautiful one at that. I'm not asking for anything, just you know maybe..grow up? please?

I would so much like to say how wonderful is friendship. Recently, some of my friends have encountered problems involving the word "friends". I couldn't understand why was it so hard to just hang around. I mean, as friends? you get what I meant? Was it so hard to just fit in? As long as everyone was happy? I knew i was.

I just couldn't get them. I do now. It's no use hidding from my feelings anymore. Now I ask myself. What does the word "friends" mean to you? I don't know.

Starry Starry Night~

Be who you are,

And Say what you feel.

Because those who Mind doesn't matter (its true)

And those who Matter don't mind.

Thought of the moment :



What's life without a little sugar and spice?





What's life without a little attitude and character?





What's life without bumps and a little risk?





What's life without a little sex and romance?



Yet again, what's life when we've got things to do besides cleaning up the washer, studying, cooking, romancing, etc.etc.

We've got to have goals!!



I think we should all reach out and touch our goals as it feels like a good time to do so because..
What's life without goals?

Think tank : "Alcohol may be man's worst enemy, but the Bible says love your enemy,"

Frank Sinatra

Ciao.

The beginning of the end

*sighs* Don't blame me for disliking her. I can't do much more to help you out of your misery. But DO believe me, as you have always done. She's not the one for you. You know that, don't you? Still, you choose to ignore the simplest fact that is in fact going to ruin your life. Do not tell me you don't have a life, cause you do! In fact, everyone has a life ( and a good one at that) . It's how willing are you to manipulate your OWN life into a better future. You have got everything in life that a beggar would yearn for. You're a perfectly sane being who could go far if only you would stop making yourself seem so useless and so disappointing.

You don't have to have her as your wall of stability.
You don't have to have her as your strength to keep you going.
You don't have to have her to ditch you when she wants to.

Come on! You still have us!
Coming back to the main point..
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I seriously...DO NOT think that she's cut out for you.
You're playing with fire aren't you.
At the beginning, I thought that "ah..it won't go too far..just let it be.."
But now, I see that it's going way beyond.
You're going to hurt yourself like this.
You're very aware of that I'm sure.

But.

Think.

Far.

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Think once more.


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Think twice again.

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Know that fate will not let you two be together forever.

It's only temporary that you can dip deep into your world of fantasy.

Don't tell me that you and her are bound by an unbreakable force of immense love.
Don't tell me that you see yourself with her in the future
Be aware that you'll both walk separate ways in the end.

You'll be ruining her.
You'll be ruining yourself.
She's too young and immature.
You're too aware and kind.

You'll both not know what to do when the time comes.
when you and her

are forced

to leave

each

other

I don't want to be the one who sits by your side listening to you saying if only you could turn back time.

I don't want to be the one who sees my friend ruined in the heart and not be able to do anything about it.

I don't want to be the one who shuts up and does nothing when there's a huge problem going on.

However huge the power of love can be, I'd advise you to think again.
It's done, so things can not turn back, just like time does not allow us to erase our past mistakes.
However, things can be mend.
Better late than never.

I'll be so happy for you old friend, if only you'll give way to your present desires, and think for a better happy-ending future. So just you know, as always, I'll be there for you. Always.

`yin.

Thought of the day :

Difference in human that has inspired homo sapiens, and brought them closer than ever to each other.


Wonders :

Why I can be so inspired by the one that I least admire?
If it's worth the pain I'm going through for an unfruitful ending?


Dreads :

Wasting more time over the same thing


Hopes :

To go back home