Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Duston!!!!

I had the weirdest dream ever, waking up to the clamouring sound of the alarm clock. And to find that oh, it's just another Friday morning.

Updates on reflection.

19.9.09 - Updates at reflection.

current emotions : numb, sad, lost.

freak you!

Some humans are really irritating. They don't inform you of the current situation even when they know you're in with them on some project, some meetings, or the like. So damn ******. It really , really, really gets to the bottom of my nerves.

I do my part in getting information, informing you about things that concern you. It doesn't mean that you can think, "oh, she will call me if she wants to know about it" Come on! I'm not the SAINT aren't I?

IF I am the saint, maybe I would know Every Single Damn thing that you're not telling me though you think you should but do not!

I'm getting so worked up that words don't come pouring out as they should. I think it's the least decent thing you could do by informing me about things that matter!!!!Even the day before, the hour before or the minutes before!!! I still don't understand how some people can be sooo
IGNORANT and

INSOLENT and

IRRESPONSIBLE!

DONT YOU HAVE A HEART?

OR A MIND IN THE LEAST?


Freak you. You're really breaking my heart. you know. freak.

Damac Finale

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Congratulations! You are successful in going to Dasein Damac Finale. We will call you or mail you soon. See you on 5 September.


Damac is a national art competition held every year by Dasein Academy of Art, and last year 150 students out of thousands were shortlisted to participate in the finale. This year, well well, yun yan and I participated just to see if we could get into the finals. Who knows!!! XD haha.

Anyways, I'm not sure if I get to go because it's really near to the exams and I don't want to flunk any of the subjects. They are way too important. Yet, a trip to KL would be a good experience as I'll get to once again compete under pressure. So, it's a choice I have to make, which I barely get to make, if parents step in. Gratz to yun yan who also got thru into the finals.

We're so happy XD HAHA

drumz

Reminiscing the past...

This is a lil blur, because of the lighting and all during the day of our anniversary.

Retirement?

Seems to me like many pople face the same problem in and out. Many trouble about not being happy neglected. And others just feel depressed about not being loved. HR really freaks me out at times too. Its like, Human Relationship.What about it? It constantly hurts us if we put too much feelings into a relationship. But if we don't, we feel left out. It mostly like a give and take solution. Sometimes, if you're willing to take the risk of being hurt by someone, you may have experienced beautiful moments with that person. I don't know, sometimes, it hurts so much because nobody can understand you that well if you don't say things out in a straightforwardly way. However, some things are just not meant to be said so openly. Cause it might hurt others and break a few hearts. Things don't come easy. And it's really hard to completely forgive someone for making a deep cut in your heart. It becomes a scar that remains there forever and ever. The wound might heal with time, but the scar will always be there. And that's why we hardly ever get over things that matters to us the most.

Speaking of which, today's our 24 Seasons Drums anniversary. It might be the last time that I'll ever get to mingle with them. It kinda hurts seeing that I've been there for about 5 years, and that this will be the last time I'll be looking at those familiar faces and new ones of course. And coach too. It may be the last time I get to experience such wonderful ideas flowing from a single brain which evolves into a whole new concept. It's amazing really. Although I might not be the most active person there, I've always felt their presence there. It's like you know you've always got a home you can go to if something happens. They'll always be there no matter what. And all this is about to end.just.like.that.It's disheartening of course.

But today, I felt what it really felt like to see someone presenting your masterpiece, seeing my team mates out there, drumming along with my masterpiece. I was fidgeting so much, even the coach told me not to get so worried about them. But what can I say, they're brought up by me for that particular drum piece. If I'm not worried for them, who else will be there when they most need someone by their side? Speaking of which, when it came to coach's masterpiece, which was drummed by another set of drummers, he was so excited that he stood up from his seat, and went to the centre of the hall where he could get a better view of his drummers. Now who's more worried? XD But I'm really really glad that before I retire, I get to experience my masterpiece being dedicated by a set of professional and experienced drummers, all of which have joined me thru these 5 years. I love them and will always be there for them. Cheers!! Well done!! Great job at the anniversary today!

What a month!

I sorta neglected this blog for quite sometime, getting "updates!!" from others. Anyways, life's kinda hectic at the moment, mainly for our Drums Anniversary which is going to be held on the 8th of August, which is one day away. This year however, I will not be participating in any of the items involved, mainly due to the injury on my hand ( which is annoyingly not recovering). It makes me feel out of the team because this is the last year, and I will not be able to give it my last shot. However, I do feel grateful the buddies need me there to guide them through our drums item.

Another thing to frustrate over is the performance for the Thanksgiving teacher's day. I don't get the clear picture of what we should actually do to make everyone happy, but I guess there'll always be a good way out. And with the help of coach, we'll make a blast, and hopefully everyone is happy or will be happy. I feel there's no need to fuss about the matter once it's decided so hell just get on with the thing.

This week is "be nice" week. I fared mainly okay for the first day, but my ratings seemed to drop as days pass, but I'm okay la.haha. Just trying to make my life more "colourful". XD I managed to get others to join in the "be nice" week. So it's kinda fun.

There's tons of homework to catch up on. And with the massive headache on and off, I hope I don't explode! We're going to the library once every week to study. It's so fun since everybody can teach me add maths, which I am dead meat weak at. Practically everyone can teach me. I guess I'm improving though. There's essay and esei for homework, not to mention the school's checking our exercises this week and next.

I hope everthing turns out well on 8/8 .haha. so excited. Oh btw, Tze Bey had the privilege to be the first one I drove alone to somewhere far.far.far. And #2 goes to Xin Tze. I wonder when's Xin Rou's turn? This Sunday perhaps? =P

NS

I tak kena NS, nak kata hapi pun tak boleh, sedih pun not really like it. But semua ini God's will, nak kata apa? ini destiny! Tak boleh Change! Maybe ada reason kat belakang semua ini. orang kata "ada udang di sebalik batu" ..haha, tapi bukan guna macam ni la. more like, ada reason di sebalik everything that happens!

Maybe I boleh pi kerja, sure fun! Nak pi main-main sama 3 bulan pun boleh! Syok nea!!! Tapi i dilema. cause pi NS sure SYOK pun, tapi nak datang monthly blood donation baru teruk. Every month kena donate 7 hari. Poor thing. Oleh itu, I kata, there's a reason!! Reason-nya, I tak perlu macam lembu dan kuda, pain kat monthly blood donation pun tak boleh rest kat rumah. Macam tu la. Tapi pi kat NS sure gain lotsa experience. Ini experience bagui you tau!! nak belajar ni kat buku teks pun tak boleh!Sure lose out a lot. But tak apa la. Macam ini hari hari main pun syok.

So i nak offline le.nak pi tidur, dream kat hari hari I nak main after SPM. SYOK-NEAAA!!!

Drummers meeting

After school today, I went with the four flowers to GP to celebrate HM's belated birthday. We walked through one-stop, then went thru the back lane to the new wing of GP. Luckily I memorised the lanes, if not I wouldn't have been able to get back alone!!

We met up with JS and the guys. Was a little tired after a whole day at school. So was very sien (me I mean). Next, met up with the CLPS guys, went to pizza hut. Finally, food!! It was 2.00 at that time!! So hungry was I!! The food came, and we just ate and talked and joked and laughed. ZH was pulling everyone's leg, making fun of the "married ones" and the "single ones" plus the "going to be married ones". It's complicated. He got a little further by making dirty jokes, which was..erm..not really nice? But we're cool with it though.

CH bought a really really SWEET cake for HM. The guys were perli-ing both of them. And my did CH blush till the roots of his nerves! XD HM was quite steady throughout suprisingly. She's growing up! =]

Then we "thai" ppl's moved aside and the guys made them prisoners. They had a small talk of their own. There's no absolute result yet. I wonder what's gonna happen next?

Then we headed off to GP again. Walked and walked, aimlessly. Till they wanted to go to CRC. So we headed over there. And got stuck outside from boredness. Took a few silly pictures and went in again. Then, we got into the heat of playing shooting the hoops with basketballs. It was really fun. =] Next time, i'm going to QB to play it!! XD

Then, WT wanted to go to Popular, so HM, WS and I accompanied her over there. The others followed suit about 3 minutes later. Then, I had to go back cause the school bus was going to leave at 6.15pm!! And I had to walk back!! alone..unfortunately.. Luckily nothing strange happened and I managed to reach my destination safely, I gave them a call to report my standing and poof, the bus is off.

back home.dinner out with family.Italian restaurant. Bravo. Was quite okay. The food I meant. was very full in the end. ate pizza again. But no worries, I love western food! XD Went to Watson.back home.did some sj notes.blog.

p.s. HM, i'm very glad for you. Hope you're happy and gratz that you've become stronger.

SY, you know what you want in life.Gratz to you too. And good luck with him.

WS, haha, you're like me.

ST, You're one happy lil puppy

JS, thanks for hosting the whole thing. I really appreciate your effort. It was great.

CH, good luck! Have confidence! DOn't blush so much, haha, though we all know you're shy.

ZH, being more polite could make girls swarm for you even. too bad it's the opposite!

WT, don't gt lost lolz, JS might freak out! XD

DAVID, you can start your very own debut album if you keep up the very very extraordinary special mock singing!

WC, thanks for the meal!

Others, glad you guys could make it, hope you've enjoyed urself!


Yours sincerely,
Yin

I miss you

I miss you
I didn't think that the day we met was on such a day,
You were nothing special
You were far from outstanding
Then you showed your stripes
I noticed you from the crowd
You were more than outstanding
You were amazing

You were mysterious,
yet quiet
charming
yet not knowing

You were simple,
yet complicated,
daring,
yet not showing

The look was vague
yet misted with energy
the look was eager
yet so lonely and longing

You smiled at the simplest thing
and i snorted at the littlest issue
You frowned at the simplest dismay
while i carefully noticed the little details from what
which was so close
and yet so far

I still can't tell
whether you were that kind?
or were you just putting up a scene
for me to see
Were you the man you depicted?
or were you someone else
different from what we expected?

You walked away,
earlier than the rest
the look in your eyes,
gave none of your feelings away

You left unnoticed
you left ununderstandable
you left without leaving anything behind
you left me with a HUGE question mark

I miss you

darn acting!

darn with acting!
Well, maybe you had a reason for doing so.
Was it THAT worth it to hurt others while you got what you wanted?
How did it feel to be the control freak again and again huh?
Was it that pleasurable?
I guess it was, cause you're still doing it over the years.
It must have been like chocolates and diamonds huh..
And you,
maybe you have to face it,
or save something precious to you.
Haven't you noticed the hurt look in the eyes of the people around you?
Maybe you did it for the better good.
But didn't you notice how much confidence in a person that you knocked down?
We can't satisfy every need.
Well, maybe some things weren't that important to you in the first place.
May be your thoughts created a different scenario.
Well, has it?
over the years..has it?
And you,
why do you struggle so much to show the real you?
why do you want to stop acting in front of the whole world and be true to yourself?
Do you see others doing the same way?
What do you see in that?
Darn acting...

AUGHH!!!

So tired. Yesterday, we went to HZ's house to have a mini-gathering for her belated birthday. Check out XR wearing a MINI SKIRT next time. If you didn't, you've lost a chance of a life-time. Today, went to school, tired out. Who knew teaching drums could be so energy-consuming? Ahh..
My heads spinning. Had to drive back. Next, we went to somewhere in Perak Road to have dinner. I was the driver again. Then the journey back home.

p.s. I'm tired
p.s.s.lolz, i've been repeating myself for like thousands of times.
p.s.s.s.i'm tired of repeating myself
p.s.s.s.s I'm tired.

shites, don't bother me, I've gone a little sinile. I'm going to sleep. Btw, good luck to HZ, ZM and XR!Gambateh! well, good night.love you.

白天的天啊天空的空啊空白的白啊～白天空..白天空....白天空......鼓动晚来风Yeah!唔我为顶峰～Feel~~

busy triangle

Wah!! It was such a busy week for me. First there was four days of speech craft workshop, followed instantly by 4 days of 24 season drum's camp!!! IT WAS SOOOOO FUN!!!

Speech craft workshop taught me a lot of things. I learnt to gain confidence, to be able to face a crowd and talk about something, I learnt about table topics, about different people, different thoughts, different styles, different vocal variety, gestures, tones etc. etc. etc. The list goes on and on and on..!!

Next came the most exhilarating part----24 season drum's camp!!

4 words. I simply loved it. It totally fired me up to see the many possibilities in this world. If only we believe and have faith, open up our eyes to a whole new world which is in fact, or actually the world we live in, changes can be made, and will be made. I loved the camp, I loved the guys, I loved the games, I loved the moments when we were all together, I loved the moonlight that linked us all in that fated 3 days, I loved the times where we practiced and performed together, I loved the times we had to help out each other when things were not going the right way. I even loved the times where we had to bathe in toilets, eat together in the canteen, wash the dishes with that same tub of soap, got scolded together, got hurt together, got happiness together, did those terrible yoga exercises, the morning physical trainings, ...etc..etc..etc.. My, my, it was really an unforgettable experience. And me, I loved every single moment of it.

It's rather hard trying not to miss those lovely moments and people, but we have to look forward, learn and improve. That's what I believe. Life is like a train. People board the train, some people leave, some people stay a little longer. What can I say, live life to the fullest, cherish every moment we have! BAI TIAN KONG!! JIA YOU!!!