SPM fiesta

Preparing for SPM is QUITE (to the extreme way) stressful. You want to study, and you KNOW you just have to study but somehow, you're not in the mood, or you're tired of it, or something you can't figure out just simply pisses you off. Many people face the same problem I'm sure.

In which during the afternoon, I was studying history. Suddenly the word Woodrow Wilson popped out and "ppoooff" I surprised myself by forgetting about woodrow wilson. So, having freaked out, I stomped upstairs and frantically searched out the name in the history textbook.(that's a little elaborated explanation) Turns out it's a declaration made after World War I. That really freaked me out cause for someone who's been studying the same subject for 6 days, I couldn't even remember something as simple as that, what would give me the confidence to sit for the exams.

By now, you'll find eyebags the same size as my eyes. hahaha.But no worries, I'm sure my friends have eyebags THRICE the size of their eyes. I've seen it, so there's no doubting that! Conclusion, We still have less than 30 day towards freedom. I'll have to go to school 13 days for the exams. So that accounts to not really much time spent at our most beloved dear school. And then it'll be "adios"!!

Anyway, GOOD LUCK to those who're going to sit for the SPM and STPM!!

Aquarius Astrology January 20 - February 18

Aquarius Strength Keywords:

- Witty
- Clever
- Humanitarian
- Inventive
- Original

Aquarius Weakness Keywords:

- Stubborn
- Unemotional
- Sarcastic
- Rebellious
- Aloof

Aquarius and Independence:

Aquarius personality is very independent, any attempt to hold them down or restrict them will cause them, to flee. They need to be free to be on their own. Independence is not just desired by Aquarius, it is essential to their well being.

Aquarius and Friendship:

Beneath the detached, unemotional exterior lies a kind hearted friend that will go out of their way to help another. They love to make people laugh and cheer people up and it makes them feel good to make others feel good. They do not expect anything in return for this could put a damper on their freedom, they live with no strings attached. They are very unconventional and always full of excitement, an Aquarius friend always makes life fun. They might offer you a spontaneous last minute camping trip with no supplies prepared, if you decide to go along, you will have a weekend to remember forever!

Aquarius and Business:

Aquarius likes to do something useful with their lives, mixing that with their amazing way with people, they make excellent politicians and social workers/psychologists. They are progressive thinkers and are great at forming new ideologies and theories, any type of research is very suited to Aquarius. Aquarius one downfall in the business world is the attention to detail, they like the grand ideas and massive plans and can make them happen, but the mundane day to day repetitive details causes them to procrastinate. Aquarius needs a secretary.

Aquarius and Temperament:

Aquarius tend to be rebels just for the sake of having their own way. Their stubbornness sometimes causes their failure, they will continue to do something their way even though others have proved it is wrong, they are very smart people and know it is wrong but they will continue just because it is their way, they are very fixed in opinion and stubborn when confronted. Despite their stubbornness and fixed opinion, they will never impose their ideas on others, they have respect for everybody's differences.

Aquarius Deep Inside:

Aquarius are in search of wisdom, they are very observant and they can gather their information objectively because emotions do not get in the way, they seem to be above emotions altogether and when they speak, they speak the truth. Sometimes it may be shocking or painful because of their disregard for the feelings of others, but they intend no harm, they call it like they see it and do not emotions cloud their judgment, they are very detached from emotion. It is not that Aquarius are unemotional, they just to not trust their emotions so they incorporate them into their ideas of who they are. As a result, if someone does not agree with their ideas, Aquarius sometimes takes it personally, not as much as other zodiac signs however as Aquarius is intellect driven and not emotionally driven. Sometimes they wonder if there is something in life that they are missing because they do not feel like other people feel. This does not necessarily prevent them from being involved in intimate relationships, they are capable of this but the person on the other end will always notice an air of detachment from Aquarius. Aquarius wonders 'why?' so much that they can question their existence. They wonder if what they are doing is useful, they want other people to notice them and appreciate them, this is caused by underlying insecurities that wonder if other people accept them for who they are but these are never brought to the surface because to an Aquarius, it does not matter that much because they know that they are special.

Aquarius in a Nutshell:

Aquarius is the sign of visionaries, unconventionality and intellectual independence. Aquarius are the people who deviate from the crowd and go their own way. They are always after intellectual stimulation, constantly discovering something new, forming new opinions and stubbornly traveling their way regardless of what other people think. Aquarius are filled with paradoxes, they are interested in the opposite ends of the spectrum, they like to be alone yet are social butterflies, they like to experience both sides and see both opinions as they formulate new ideas with their forward thinking, active mind. Aquarius have a 'live and let live' policy where everyone is free to be themselves, an Aquarius never judges others because as human beings, we are all equal and entitled to our own opinions. They are verbally skilled and very witty, they observe people and learn how to interact with others through observation. They can be masters of manipulation justifying anything they do or think. As a result, they can deal with any type of personality and adapt to any situation. They welcome change because boredom is their enemy. Anything new is an opportunity to Aquarius. Aquarius can act as an expert on any topic, they are very good at inflating their own importance, they feel it is deserved because their eccentricity makes them unique. Conventional people beware, Aquarius likes to shock and deviate from the norm, this is how they live. Aquarius is known to pick at anyone they find weak or dull-minded. It is simply an easy target for verbal exercise for them, no harm is meant but it might be taken from the other person. Deep inside, Aquarius would never intentionally hurt anyone, they have respect for every human, even thought this might not seem apparent to the more emotional types.



It's very true. EXTREMELY!!! In case you're interested to know your what your star sign means, leave me a note in the chat box. You're welcome.

Shuffle Dance Competition

Yesterday, we went to Penang's Time Square. It was not half full until we walked to the end of the building. What went on there was way cool. There was a shuffle dance competition and so many youngsters were there. People were shuffling and enjoying themselves everywhere oblivious to every other one around them. And my Gawd Everything was SOO AWESOME!!!

Furthermore, they remixed the songs till it was a mixture of everything combined to become perfect music. It was a real eye opener. I saw so many kinds of people whom I didn't think existed in Penang. Most of them looked quite well-off in fact. But there were some teens who were nontheless smoking to their hearts content, which is bad of course.

Then it started to rain. Still, that did not alter the crowd's mood. Some danced madly in the rain, which made me realise that these people were here with the same passion and dream. The atmosphere was more than great, it was simply the best. No pictures taken though. Still, it would have been an unforgettable experience.

Time Square's not completed though. But I'll bet it'll be a popular hangout place in the future and nothing less. The only tick off is that it takes FOREVER to just drive up the parking lane before you can park your car.

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Duston!!!!

I had the weirdest dream ever, waking up to the clamouring sound of the alarm clock. And to find that oh, it's just another Friday morning.

Updates on reflection.

19.9.09 - Updates at reflection.

current emotions : numb, sad, lost.

freak you!

Some humans are really irritating. They don't inform you of the current situation even when they know you're in with them on some project, some meetings, or the like. So damn ******. It really , really, really gets to the bottom of my nerves.

I do my part in getting information, informing you about things that concern you. It doesn't mean that you can think, "oh, she will call me if she wants to know about it" Come on! I'm not the SAINT aren't I?

IF I am the saint, maybe I would know Every Single Damn thing that you're not telling me though you think you should but do not!

I'm getting so worked up that words don't come pouring out as they should. I think it's the least decent thing you could do by informing me about things that matter!!!!Even the day before, the hour before or the minutes before!!! I still don't understand how some people can be sooo
IGNORANT and

INSOLENT and

IRRESPONSIBLE!

DONT YOU HAVE A HEART?

OR A MIND IN THE LEAST?


Freak you. You're really breaking my heart. you know. freak.

Damac Finale

Check this out:

Congratulations! You are successful in going to Dasein Damac Finale. We will call you or mail you soon. See you on 5 September.


Damac is a national art competition held every year by Dasein Academy of Art, and last year 150 students out of thousands were shortlisted to participate in the finale. This year, well well, yun yan and I participated just to see if we could get into the finals. Who knows!!! XD haha.

Anyways, I'm not sure if I get to go because it's really near to the exams and I don't want to flunk any of the subjects. They are way too important. Yet, a trip to KL would be a good experience as I'll get to once again compete under pressure. So, it's a choice I have to make, which I barely get to make, if parents step in. Gratz to yun yan who also got thru into the finals.

We're so happy XD HAHA

drumz

Reminiscing the past...

This is a lil blur, because of the lighting and all during the day of our anniversary.

Retirement?

Seems to me like many pople face the same problem in and out. Many trouble about not being happy neglected. And others just feel depressed about not being loved. HR really freaks me out at times too. Its like, Human Relationship.What about it? It constantly hurts us if we put too much feelings into a relationship. But if we don't, we feel left out. It mostly like a give and take solution. Sometimes, if you're willing to take the risk of being hurt by someone, you may have experienced beautiful moments with that person. I don't know, sometimes, it hurts so much because nobody can understand you that well if you don't say things out in a straightforwardly way. However, some things are just not meant to be said so openly. Cause it might hurt others and break a few hearts. Things don't come easy. And it's really hard to completely forgive someone for making a deep cut in your heart. It becomes a scar that remains there forever and ever. The wound might heal with time, but the scar will always be there. And that's why we hardly ever get over things that matters to us the most.

Speaking of which, today's our 24 Seasons Drums anniversary. It might be the last time that I'll ever get to mingle with them. It kinda hurts seeing that I've been there for about 5 years, and that this will be the last time I'll be looking at those familiar faces and new ones of course. And coach too. It may be the last time I get to experience such wonderful ideas flowing from a single brain which evolves into a whole new concept. It's amazing really. Although I might not be the most active person there, I've always felt their presence there. It's like you know you've always got a home you can go to if something happens. They'll always be there no matter what. And all this is about to end.just.like.that.It's disheartening of course.

But today, I felt what it really felt like to see someone presenting your masterpiece, seeing my team mates out there, drumming along with my masterpiece. I was fidgeting so much, even the coach told me not to get so worried about them. But what can I say, they're brought up by me for that particular drum piece. If I'm not worried for them, who else will be there when they most need someone by their side? Speaking of which, when it came to coach's masterpiece, which was drummed by another set of drummers, he was so excited that he stood up from his seat, and went to the centre of the hall where he could get a better view of his drummers. Now who's more worried? XD But I'm really really glad that before I retire, I get to experience my masterpiece being dedicated by a set of professional and experienced drummers, all of which have joined me thru these 5 years. I love them and will always be there for them. Cheers!! Well done!! Great job at the anniversary today!

What a month!

I sorta neglected this blog for quite sometime, getting "updates!!" from others. Anyways, life's kinda hectic at the moment, mainly for our Drums Anniversary which is going to be held on the 8th of August, which is one day away. This year however, I will not be participating in any of the items involved, mainly due to the injury on my hand ( which is annoyingly not recovering). It makes me feel out of the team because this is the last year, and I will not be able to give it my last shot. However, I do feel grateful the buddies need me there to guide them through our drums item.

Another thing to frustrate over is the performance for the Thanksgiving teacher's day. I don't get the clear picture of what we should actually do to make everyone happy, but I guess there'll always be a good way out. And with the help of coach, we'll make a blast, and hopefully everyone is happy or will be happy. I feel there's no need to fuss about the matter once it's decided so hell just get on with the thing.

This week is "be nice" week. I fared mainly okay for the first day, but my ratings seemed to drop as days pass, but I'm okay la.haha. Just trying to make my life more "colourful". XD I managed to get others to join in the "be nice" week. So it's kinda fun.

There's tons of homework to catch up on. And with the massive headache on and off, I hope I don't explode! We're going to the library once every week to study. It's so fun since everybody can teach me add maths, which I am dead meat weak at. Practically everyone can teach me. I guess I'm improving though. There's essay and esei for homework, not to mention the school's checking our exercises this week and next.

I hope everthing turns out well on 8/8 .haha. so excited. Oh btw, Tze Bey had the privilege to be the first one I drove alone to somewhere far.far.far. And #2 goes to Xin Tze. I wonder when's Xin Rou's turn? This Sunday perhaps? =P

NS

I tak kena NS, nak kata hapi pun tak boleh, sedih pun not really like it. But semua ini God's will, nak kata apa? ini destiny! Tak boleh Change! Maybe ada reason kat belakang semua ini. orang kata "ada udang di sebalik batu" ..haha, tapi bukan guna macam ni la. more like, ada reason di sebalik everything that happens!

Maybe I boleh pi kerja, sure fun! Nak pi main-main sama 3 bulan pun boleh! Syok nea!!! Tapi i dilema. cause pi NS sure SYOK pun, tapi nak datang monthly blood donation baru teruk. Every month kena donate 7 hari. Poor thing. Oleh itu, I kata, there's a reason!! Reason-nya, I tak perlu macam lembu dan kuda, pain kat monthly blood donation pun tak boleh rest kat rumah. Macam tu la. Tapi pi kat NS sure gain lotsa experience. Ini experience bagui you tau!! nak belajar ni kat buku teks pun tak boleh!Sure lose out a lot. But tak apa la. Macam ini hari hari main pun syok.

So i nak offline le.nak pi tidur, dream kat hari hari I nak main after SPM. SYOK-NEAAA!!!

Drummers meeting

After school today, I went with the four flowers to GP to celebrate HM's belated birthday. We walked through one-stop, then went thru the back lane to the new wing of GP. Luckily I memorised the lanes, if not I wouldn't have been able to get back alone!!

We met up with JS and the guys. Was a little tired after a whole day at school. So was very sien (me I mean). Next, met up with the CLPS guys, went to pizza hut. Finally, food!! It was 2.00 at that time!! So hungry was I!! The food came, and we just ate and talked and joked and laughed. ZH was pulling everyone's leg, making fun of the "married ones" and the "single ones" plus the "going to be married ones". It's complicated. He got a little further by making dirty jokes, which was..erm..not really nice? But we're cool with it though.

CH bought a really really SWEET cake for HM. The guys were perli-ing both of them. And my did CH blush till the roots of his nerves! XD HM was quite steady throughout suprisingly. She's growing up! =]

Then we "thai" ppl's moved aside and the guys made them prisoners. They had a small talk of their own. There's no absolute result yet. I wonder what's gonna happen next?

Then we headed off to GP again. Walked and walked, aimlessly. Till they wanted to go to CRC. So we headed over there. And got stuck outside from boredness. Took a few silly pictures and went in again. Then, we got into the heat of playing shooting the hoops with basketballs. It was really fun. =] Next time, i'm going to QB to play it!! XD

Then, WT wanted to go to Popular, so HM, WS and I accompanied her over there. The others followed suit about 3 minutes later. Then, I had to go back cause the school bus was going to leave at 6.15pm!! And I had to walk back!! alone..unfortunately.. Luckily nothing strange happened and I managed to reach my destination safely, I gave them a call to report my standing and poof, the bus is off.

back home.dinner out with family.Italian restaurant. Bravo. Was quite okay. The food I meant. was very full in the end. ate pizza again. But no worries, I love western food! XD Went to Watson.back home.did some sj notes.blog.

p.s. HM, i'm very glad for you. Hope you're happy and gratz that you've become stronger.

SY, you know what you want in life.Gratz to you too. And good luck with him.

WS, haha, you're like me.

ST, You're one happy lil puppy

JS, thanks for hosting the whole thing. I really appreciate your effort. It was great.

CH, good luck! Have confidence! DOn't blush so much, haha, though we all know you're shy.

ZH, being more polite could make girls swarm for you even. too bad it's the opposite!

WT, don't gt lost lolz, JS might freak out! XD

DAVID, you can start your very own debut album if you keep up the very very extraordinary special mock singing!

WC, thanks for the meal!

Others, glad you guys could make it, hope you've enjoyed urself!


Yours sincerely,
Yin

I miss you

I miss you
I didn't think that the day we met was on such a day,
You were nothing special
You were far from outstanding
Then you showed your stripes
I noticed you from the crowd
You were more than outstanding
You were amazing

You were mysterious,
yet quiet
charming
yet not knowing

You were simple,
yet complicated,
daring,
yet not showing

The look was vague
yet misted with energy
the look was eager
yet so lonely and longing

You smiled at the simplest thing
and i snorted at the littlest issue
You frowned at the simplest dismay
while i carefully noticed the little details from what
which was so close
and yet so far

I still can't tell
whether you were that kind?
or were you just putting up a scene
for me to see
Were you the man you depicted?
or were you someone else
different from what we expected?

You walked away,
earlier than the rest
the look in your eyes,
gave none of your feelings away

You left unnoticed
you left ununderstandable
you left without leaving anything behind
you left me with a HUGE question mark

I miss you

darn acting!

darn with acting!
Well, maybe you had a reason for doing so.
Was it THAT worth it to hurt others while you got what you wanted?
How did it feel to be the control freak again and again huh?
Was it that pleasurable?
I guess it was, cause you're still doing it over the years.
It must have been like chocolates and diamonds huh..
And you,
maybe you have to face it,
or save something precious to you.
Haven't you noticed the hurt look in the eyes of the people around you?
Maybe you did it for the better good.
But didn't you notice how much confidence in a person that you knocked down?
We can't satisfy every need.
Well, maybe some things weren't that important to you in the first place.
May be your thoughts created a different scenario.
Well, has it?
over the years..has it?
And you,
why do you struggle so much to show the real you?
why do you want to stop acting in front of the whole world and be true to yourself?
Do you see others doing the same way?
What do you see in that?
Darn acting...